college life

College life here is just what it should be. I've met tons of awesome people. Especially in band. everyone there gets along! They all want to be there and work hard to make our band the best we can be! My roomates are all dolls and we get along nicely. They could be a little more.......sociable with me, but there's no tension whatsoever. They're also very clean. The other day, one of my roomates made my bed. SHE MADE MY BED! I couldn't believe it. I guess she was in my room talking to jacqueline and she said it made her nervous. So she made it! So now i find myself being very careful with making my bed, doing dishes and trying to do my part so that I don't have the guilt on my shoulders of my roomates doing all the work. It's hard considering i'm an averagely sloppy person. I don't leave moldy pizza crusts and soda cans in my room. It mostly consists of clothes and random accessories. People are constantly in and out of my apartment. Mostly because of my roomates. I find that around here you can just walk in and out of other peoples apartment as you please. It's very common. And if something's going on in one persons apartment, eveyone is invited! People know me now and it's fun walking into a room and having a bunch of people say "Hey Bonnie!". I have lots of free time in my schedule right now, but I'm looking forward to working as soon as possible. Then maybe I'll be able to pay next months rent? :/ I finally got a letter from Daniel people! what a blissful day that was! It showed up at mt parents house and i got it when i came into town last weekend. Nothing like a trip home to remind you why you're not homesick. No. I'm not homesick in the least. I love it here. I have everything i need. Although i think I need to go to more institute activities. Institute is great. Especially since i get free wifi in my apartment form the institute ;). What more could a girl ask for?

missionaries girlfriend sings as she waits....and waits....and waits

Waiting for a missionary has to be one of the hardest things i've ever done. but if anyone happened to read this who was recently faced with this predicament, i think i'll shell out some advice.

Number one, the first month is the worst. once your missionary is in the mtc, you expect him to write you at every opportunity and make as much contact with you as possible. sorry, but the mtc is a very busy place with a very tight schedule. they only give the elders a few minutes on p-days to write everyone. and if your missionary is as amazing as mine, there are probably a lot of people writing him.

number two, you're spoiled the first month as well. in case you didn't notice, the mtc is not that far away. it takes about 3 days for a letter to go from the mtc to wherever you are. so you get a decent amount of letters! happy day! once he leaves provo, that's when the gap between letters gets wider and wider. i'm writing this and haven't gotten a letter in about 5 weeks. Good news though. the farther the letters are apart, the less anticipation there is. i'm slowly getting used to facing the fact that my man is a missionary and he's busy. i shouldn't even be a priority anyway. daniel has clearly stated in his letter that he knows this is the lords time, not his. and that's the way it should be.

number three, build a shrine. it's so much fun making little crafts that help you wait for your missionary. i've made a few. i decorated a box especially for his letters, i made a chart to mark off the days until he gets home. one of my friends made a paper chain and she cuts one off every fast sunday. that way she didn't have to make a 730 link long chain.

number four, NEVER EVER tell your man you wish he was home. that's a big no no. you do NOT wish he was home. you want him to stay on his mission and return with honor so you can go to the temple. that's why you love him in the first place right? along with that, you should refrain from mushy gushy letters to him. make letters fun and detailed. like about hobbies, school church stuff and fun things that are happening! i like to draw him pictures. it makes the letter seem more like me because i'm a very visual person

number five, dearelder.com is your best friend. if you write a letter on there, you can have it get to him the next day as opposed to 2 weeks. that way he can get his letter to you sooner. one fun idea is to send him a memory card! i just recorded a video of myself talking to him and sent it to him! it's a good way to makje sure he doesn't forget your beautiful face and voice.

number six, join the group "waiting for a missionary" on facebook. it's full of girls who are all pulling through it together. and there are so many success stories! you'd be amazed at how many girls only have like 38 days left to go till their elder gets home. also, when there's no one else that has any confidence you'll wait, they do. every single girl has had problems with waiter haters. it's a very frustrating thing when you tell people you're waiting and they say "i waited for a missionary, for about 5 months". that's about the most common thing you'll hear. well guess what? gordon b hinkleys wife waited for him. along with several other general authorities.

well, i hope this blog was helpful or just rather informative. i know i've only been waiting for about 2 1/2 months. but they've been the most enlightening 2 1/2 months of my life. don't ever give up!

College

College. I don't think i've ever looked forward to anything more in my life. well, maybe a couple things. like seeing daniel, band events and graduation. But i've mentioned in previous posts how i was completely stoked about gaining my independence! well guess what?!?! it's right around the corner! I just made a deposit on an adorable apartment (layout --->) I don't know if you can see it all, but it's wonderfully small and wonderfully new. Everything else in thatcher is about 100 years old. no lie. and this apartment complex is only about 5 years old. i got very lucky because i called them and i was at the top of the waiting list! the thing is, they didn't have my number. they had samis number! so i made a $500 deposit the other day and the apartment is mine! i already made contact with one of my roomates. Now there is independence. I also registered for classes! I'm all set! now all i have to do is make as much money as possible before i head over there.

Right now our family is in a tight crunch. My parents can provide me down near zero funds for college so i'm paying for it all myself. Hopefully i'll earn about 2 months rent before i leave. i don't even know if i'll make that much. My sister got a car in high school. she also got a laptop for graduation. Now she crashed the car, but she still has a working laptop. I don't even have a license. I have a bike. Where's my laptop? oh wait. we can't pay for one. sigh! well, i'm not really worried about the car. my apartment is about 100 yards away form everything i need to get to. except for maybe a grocery store. I'm not much worried about transportation. But i could really use a laptop right now. But hey. my birthday is coming up. maybe i'll get lucky and receive an ample amount of birthday money. I'm turning 18! no longer a minor! i might have to come up with a new name for my blog. The sad thing is, i'm not as excited about turning 18 as i am excited for the drum corps semi finals! it's gonna be the best birthday present i ever gave myself!!!!! Yes. i know i'm a huge geek.

I haven't written in a veeery long time. so i have recently begun waiting for a missionary!!!!!! i won't say much other than i'm completely obsessed. i hope i get a letter today. see you all!

Mewsick

idk how many of you are hard core music junkies, but i just have to reveal to you how important it really is!!! i'm not talking music like listening to your ipod. i'm talking about making music. whether, it be singing, or playing an instrument. my choral director is retiring after this year and it's devastating for our school because he is THE NAME of westwood. another problem is the only other directors at our school have 3 years of experience. and that's the two of them put together. so next year our school is gonna be full of three mid twenties, inexperienced people. hooray. without mr harris, i think our band program would be non existent. he's the one who took initiative and convinces people that school is not school without a music program. if there was no music at school, i really wouldn't go to school. i would have no reason to. it's like for some people with sports. personally, i have no interest in it. i think most sports are dumb and pointless. but i think everyone needs a sense of achievement in what they do in high school. people that don't do anything extracurricular in high school have like, no good memories. these are the kind of people that create and attract drama because it's the only thing they know how to do for fun. you do drugs and make out with other people boyfriends. you know what i do? i play the saxophone, sing and dance at random! it's called clean fun. you should try it sometime!!! music is a way to show emotion and you don't even have to say anything. angry? go bang some drums. (it's really really fun. i've tried it) making good music always gives me goosebumps and makes me sooo happy! i feel bad for the people who will never experience making good music of their own.

have you ever noticed, a room seems happier when there's good music being played in the background? i have this friend, and there is constantly music being played in her house. especially during christmas season. it's loud enough for you to hear it, but soft enough that it won't drown out casual conversation. it makes everything more lighthearted! one of my favorite things in the world?!?! pandora. i should attach a link or something because i can type in whatever music i like, and it will constantly stream music to me that i actually like! i've actually learned to start hating pop music. sure i love popular music when i'm at a party on the weekends, but all the time? it stinks!!! it's funny because i never realized i liked that type of music so much until pandora when i looked through all my stations and found myself choosing that one genre over all the other pop music stations. open your minds people! you might find your favorite music, isn't actually your favorite music! listen to it people. all kinds.

Two worlds

Whoo! do you guys have any idea what it's like to spend a 15 hour day at school? Apparently i gravitate towards activities that take up as much of my free time as humanly possible. I think it's because i'm trying to have and excuse to get out of doing any real work. I mean marching band was one thing, but the musical is pretty ridiculous. Especially since i spend most of my time sitting around in a skirt. I've also discovered that i get along better with 12 year old boys than 12 year old girls or people my age of either sex. There's two of them in our musical and they're pretty much adorable. Both completely naive and innocent. Any other way and they would probably claim me as their girlfriend or something. I'm a girl of two worlds. It's kinda ridiculous. I'm a choir girl and a band girl, which is like being on two different planets. On one, i'm surrounded by people that intimidate me with popularity, attractiveness, talent and values. I'm always a better person there, and i'm friends with everyone, yet i'm not really "close" to many people there. There's a couple but i don't hang out with them outside of school. On my other planet, i'm intimidated, but it's just because i fear i will be robbed or something like that. But, also in this atmosphere, lies my very best friend! It's so weird! I love both for different reasons. I adore the saxophone. I would choose playing my sax over singing any day, but i never learn anything in band because very few in there are up to my level. In choir, i have competition all around me and i have a bar set above me that i can work up to. I love that! Along with an amazing teacher who chooses the best music and doesn't put up with anything. I love that too! But then again, i love my band teacher! i consider him one of my friends! Do you see my situation here? I'm stuck. But luckily i don't really have to choose between the two now do i? You know what's cool about the musical though? Singing........... and pit!!!!! So i'm in a mix with my choir buddies that i admire, and my very very very best friend and my band teacher are down there in the pit supporting me! it's pretty amazing. Exhausting, but amazing. it's over soon. :( there's only one thing i lack. A hot guy. haha! i'm pathetic. oh well. peace out people

Around the head Headbands

For the first time today, i am wearing a headband AROUND my head. That's right people, AROUND the head. Like the forehead. Not the top of the head. This was not my original incentive. i have a band concert tonight right? so i'm like oh why don't i curl my hair? just for fun? I go to curl my hair and the bottom looks good. but the top? it looks crappy. now my bangs had this cute little wing tip look to them which would look perfect with a headband in the right spot. so for the first time in my life, i took a stretchy headband out of my bathroom drawer. one that i never use. and i put it around my head people. now it looked kinda funny with my hair just down in curls, so i pinned it up and now i have succeeded in making myself look like a hippie! i took pictures on my phone just so i wouldn't lose the moment. i always thought they looked a little stupid and i could never pull it off. oh well. join the club everyone!

Dissappointment

Ok, HUGE setback for my summer plans. Today i got a call from my brother in-law to tell me about a meeting he had with corporate. In this meeting he found out that in texas for this summer, incite won't be providing female housing. So i was like "ok so i have to pay for my own apartment?" No. Guess what? i get to stay in mesa for another three freaking months! AAAAAAGH! i want OUT!!!!!!!! My dad probably won't let me go to work without doing the dishes! I'm even considering renting an apartment half a mile away form my house just to escape my parents! I'm dying! I even have to make ten sales pre season so i can keep the job. Fairytale job? Not so fairytale anymore. I'm even skipping out on my choir trip for this crapper of a job training weekend! Three more months with my parents. IDK if i'll be able to do it. I'll definitely need a car and maybe a license. (definitely a license) I was so looking forward to graduating and being gone. *sigh*

On a happier note, I'm coming closer and closer to my band trip. If i can get enough money of course. I'm still about $125 short. Hopefully i can get it together. Disneyland sounds great right now. Happiest place on earth right? Well, that is until your parents want you to go with them and you're the lone teenager in the bunch. That's right, My parents want to take me to disneyland and i don't want to go. Weird huh? I'll tell you why. One; these are my parents. Don't get me wrong. I love my mommy, but my dad drives me up the wall. Two; older people are slow and require more bathroom breaks, more pictures and much less fun. And three; the person that would closest in relation to me would be my two year old niece. Even to add on to that, we'd be going the weekend after i went to disneyland with all my high school friends. It would seem significantly less entertaining after going with a bunch of teenagers. Teenagers agree with me, teenagers are more fun, i'm more myself around them and i seem less like a loner/loser.

Right now, as you can possibly tell, i'm having a severe fit of teenage angst. The musical is taking up plenty of my time. I got home from practice today, and had to go right off to mutual ten minutes later. *sigh* Our director has no idea what she's doing! we're like 5 days behind because of her! She's unprepared, inexperienced and unqualified for the job. But she thinks she's right and refuses help! But there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Today a bunch of students and parents had a meeting with the principal of our school pretty much demanding a change. Good things happened in that meeting. I have the feeling we might actually finish this thing. I love being in the musical. Maybe i'm just too lazy. Speaking of laziness, i'm too lazy to write any more blog. The end