Two worlds

Whoo! do you guys have any idea what it's like to spend a 15 hour day at school? Apparently i gravitate towards activities that take up as much of my free time as humanly possible. I think it's because i'm trying to have and excuse to get out of doing any real work. I mean marching band was one thing, but the musical is pretty ridiculous. Especially since i spend most of my time sitting around in a skirt. I've also discovered that i get along better with 12 year old boys than 12 year old girls or people my age of either sex. There's two of them in our musical and they're pretty much adorable. Both completely naive and innocent. Any other way and they would probably claim me as their girlfriend or something. I'm a girl of two worlds. It's kinda ridiculous. I'm a choir girl and a band girl, which is like being on two different planets. On one, i'm surrounded by people that intimidate me with popularity, attractiveness, talent and values. I'm always a better person there, and i'm friends with everyone, yet i'm not really "close" to many people there. There's a couple but i don't hang out with them outside of school. On my other planet, i'm intimidated, but it's just because i fear i will be robbed or something like that. But, also in this atmosphere, lies my very best friend! It's so weird! I love both for different reasons. I adore the saxophone. I would choose playing my sax over singing any day, but i never learn anything in band because very few in there are up to my level. In choir, i have competition all around me and i have a bar set above me that i can work up to. I love that! Along with an amazing teacher who chooses the best music and doesn't put up with anything. I love that too! But then again, i love my band teacher! i consider him one of my friends! Do you see my situation here? I'm stuck. But luckily i don't really have to choose between the two now do i? You know what's cool about the musical though? Singing........... and pit!!!!! So i'm in a mix with my choir buddies that i admire, and my very very very best friend and my band teacher are down there in the pit supporting me! it's pretty amazing. Exhausting, but amazing. it's over soon. :( there's only one thing i lack. A hot guy. haha! i'm pathetic. oh well. peace out people